Time is precious.

I created a blogspot acount a year ago...yet it took  me a whole year to create my first blog. Why? Just because life got in the way. But I realized after a whole year of college, the late nights in the science buildings, numerous all-nighters and just the hardcore college life, that life is always going to be in the way.
I can make excuses for tons of things--I like to think of it as a talent of mine..but others just call it procrastination. I set my alarm for 7 but don't wake up until 10, saying that I am too tired (when all you really need is 7 hours). I say I will go for  run but instead I am on the computer saying my legs hurt and I cannot go for  run today. That is life. More precisely, the excuses of living life to the fullest. I am done with these excuses, the hours spent on facebook doing absolutely nothing useful.
My roomate freshman year said that the hours she spent online she could probably cure cancer with that time. Well, thats what I want to do. I want to cure cancer. And how can I do that if I keep making excuses with my time. First I must cure myself.
Time is precious. I remember those days when I was younger in the good old 90's when time felt limitless, I used to play tag for hours, not worry about school, and the hardest thing to do was learning my multiplication tables and writing chapter summaries. I miss those day. But those days are not coming back. Life is moving forward. I want to make something of my life.
I began college last August. One year later and I'm still the same Monica I was in high school. Same anxiety, same fears, same me. I need structure in my life. I need to be military with my time so to speak. And I have to fight my mind to do that. I start my summer class on Monday--Calculus 2...and I am scared without a doubt. But I know I can succeed. I will not have those same anxieties that surfaced my first year of college, this summer is for change. Changing Monica. Making a schedule and following it. Making something of life, instead of excuses. One step at a time and it will happen. Positive thinking and the right attitude will get me there. Fighting with my mind and trusting my gut. And I am sure some green tea and honey could help. Besides what's life without a little sweetness?